new prescription

'whoever is a believer in Christ
is a new creation.
the old way of living has disappeared.
a new way of living has come into existence.
God has done all this.'

2corinthians 5:17,18a

This is my new prescription. I'm going to put it on one of my old medicine bottles and take it every day.

Now that I've lived 54 years, I'm really beginning to notice my behavioural patterns...how I deal with stress in particular...
My old way of doing stress...doesn't work that well really.
God tipped me on some new ways to handle stress just yesterday. It's freeing and humbling all at the same time, but if I really believe that in Christ I am a new creation and the old way of living has in actuality disappeared, and the new way of living has in actuality come into existence and that I don't have to 'do' this miracle myself b/c God has done all this...I'm free to accept this gift and run with it.
Wouldn't you call that tremendous- what a word- I think it's tremendous. I want my old ruts to overgrow with grass and take the new paths- leaping and bounding like the new creation God has made of me.
I love God's Word!

now to the day...

some good things...

are happening...

every Monday since Christmas, my granddaughter and I have had a visit. We are reading the Hobbit and we are chatting together and we have a contest each week. This week it was to see who would do the most puzzles...counting by piece. I managed to do 2 puzzles amounting to 498 pieces...2 pieces missing...but I'm thinking that my little grandgirl will beat me. One puzzle is a historical map of Canada and the other is a drawing of a farmer and a horse and some children collecting apples. I learned a bit about Canadian geography and history. It was fun, taking a bit of time to puzzle...

So one of my prayers has been answered...it's a great way to connect with my little darling. It's a happiness I look forward to.

Girl's Club

One of the girls that has come to club since fall, has now moved away and will not be attending anymore. This is the second girl that has moved away...It makes me sad. I see these girls every week and I will miss them. The only thing I can do for them is pray for them...that's probably the best thing anyway. I love the energy they bring to my Wednesday nights...but then

it is a lot of work to prepare,and I have done it for a long time by now...I'm thinking that this will be my last year...I've said that before and then gotten back into it again, but I think my steamer is getting low...

tonight we worked on a scrapbook calendar and our sewing and our skit...then we played tag...now there's a good work out...next week we are playing glow mini golf

...I'm really tired...

life is rich

Today is a sunshiny day...
and since Christmas I have experienced a lot.

God is good.
He brings people into our lives who cheer us and encourage us...
the hard things don't go away, they seem to stay, but God helps us...this becomes our true riches...and life becomes better as a result.

Today I read..."I am the true vine, and my Father takes care of the vineyard...
He also prunes every branch that does produce fruit to make it produce more fruit"...Jesus

Over Christmas, I learned that hard things actually become good things...
my girls are far away, yes...but we really talk and the times we have together are very precious...which enriches the experiences I have here with my children close by...and now a new gift was given me just today...to realize the care of my niece...wow I'm still crying...this is so precious to me.

I was going to erase those unhappy blogs, but I forgot that part and left my journal open, didn't I?

there is no end to the goodness of God, is there?

my husband is making a fire...how comfortable that will be...

God bless you all

I'm delighted to see...

that no one has read the two blogs before this one.
If I was always to write happy thoughts, I would be a glass horse, just like the glass horse on my desk...never moves and always looks in the same direction, collecting dust.

We have had a very good Christmas...all the kids came home this year. We've had crasy times and some excellent memories have been noted...

I love the fact that we can talk things through and be done with them...on to something else and learn from the last. I've written a whole big journal of this Christmas and I'm happy for all the things that happened.

This year has been a rich Christmas...not wealthy...true rich...

the annuls of a weeping weekend

or should I say the annuls of coping...dealing with what life dishes out...

I cannot deny that I am a mother...that happened 32 years ago and things have not changed...I'm still a mother and even a grandmother.

how do I come to peace about my far away children?

I have relatives in the far east...
the harder I hold on, the harder it will be for me...
it may not be important for my children to be within reasonable distance, but what about the grandchildren...

do I suppose that for them it is equally unimportant?
grama is someone that lives far away...how do I have a good relationship with them without heartache?

lots of people are in my position

I was in church today, even though I didn't want to go...if something bothers me, a tap is turned on and I cry and cry...and that is what happened today. I'm trying to let go and it is very painful...but I'm very glad that we went to church, because God has given us a wonderufl church family...and I have to come to the place where I let them in to replace the ache, the missing of my girls and their families...

at first I felt that no one understands me, but now I feel that some do...and that will help...I pray for the grace to deal succesfully with this long distance sorrow...

funny...I thought the sorrow of my life was the fact that my first husband left us...that has gone and now I feel this sorrow...I cannot be a real part of my grandchidren's lives, the ones far away, and I pray for this grace to deal succesfully with.

I don't think this makes much sense...but maybe in writing it out things will slowly unravel and peace will descend my heart...

we are going out to see some of the kids tonight...it's really cold, so I will wear my long Christmas coat.

wow, a year later

i don't expect anyone to read this, so i'll just type away...

long distance sucks

it is Christmas again and the whole family is coming into town, or is here already...we are having a great time with the grandchildren...but are not really seeing the kids, who are busy shopping and doing stuff...

I'm thinking about the long distance relatives who we no longer know...no effort to speak of is made to maintain a friendship and so the relationship is relatives...what's that?

It worked that way for my mother's family, half of which moved to Ontario...it worked that way in my dad's family half of which is in BC...and now my three girls are moved far away, and even when they come here, I don't see them because they have so much catching up to do. It sucks. I am at an end.

As a grandmother, I would like to be part of my grandchildren's lives. It's wonderful when they come for a visit...I relly get to know them, because they are at my house for 3-4, 4-5 days...but then the rest of our lives I have to be content with phone calls, which are hard to understand what the little ones are saying, or the older ones don't have the time to talk...yes I could become more computer savy and use the eyeball, but that has been highly unsatisfying...like one of those computer pets...

To hardly ever have any normal times with my daughters is really killing me. I have a few choices, I suppose. Do I look for young women who need a mother to go shopping with, or go for coffee with...I suppose I could put an ad in the paper or look for an agency who needs older mother type figures. My nieces have their own mothers for that purpose. I have two wonderful daughter in laws, should I simply concentrate on who is around? I find that I'm becoming bitter. My first husband left us...that was terrible...now my girls are gone...Winnipeg has nothing to offer apparently...I'm really thinking I should go somewhere else myself, but then I see the two darling grandchildren here, close by, and I can't go anywhere else...I guess I have to suck it up...I'm just tired of being sad...on days like today, I wish life would go faster, so that I could just get it over with...

now how's that for a dismal blog?
I really can't do the old optimist thing tonight...
not too worried...no one will read this...this ought to really be going in my personal journal...let it just go down in the annals of the nature of this generation...this wide spread generation...this generation of broken families...

people will learn someday perhaps...some things are meant to be, simply because God made it that way and we shouldn't mess with it...family is meant to help each other out and when they move far apart, it's not too great and very difficult to maintain a good relationship...

this mother would like to spend time with her daughters...this grandmother would like to see her grandchildren grow up...it is not to be...

I'll leave this up a little while and then I'll erase it...because it's depressing me more...it's my midnight therapy...along with a lot of crying...so there now you know what I do for fun...