or should I say the annuls of coping...dealing with what life dishes out...
I cannot deny that I am a mother...that happened 32 years ago and things have not changed...I'm still a mother and even a grandmother.
how do I come to peace about my far away children?
I have relatives in the far east...
the harder I hold on, the harder it will be for me...
it may not be important for my children to be within reasonable distance, but what about the grandchildren...
do I suppose that for them it is equally unimportant?
grama is someone that lives far away...how do I have a good relationship with them without heartache?
lots of people are in my position
I was in church today, even though I didn't want to go...if something bothers me, a tap is turned on and I cry and cry...and that is what happened today. I'm trying to let go and it is very painful...but I'm very glad that we went to church, because God has given us a wonderufl church family...and I have to come to the place where I let them in to replace the ache, the missing of my girls and their families...
at first I felt that no one understands me, but now I feel that some do...and that will help...I pray for the grace to deal succesfully with this long distance sorrow...
funny...I thought the sorrow of my life was the fact that my first husband left us...that has gone and now I feel this sorrow...I cannot be a real part of my grandchidren's lives, the ones far away, and I pray for this grace to deal succesfully with.
I don't think this makes much sense...but maybe in writing it out things will slowly unravel and peace will descend my heart...
we are going out to see some of the kids tonight...it's really cold, so I will wear my long Christmas coat.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment